Mental Health Monday #4 — Personal Update

Hey there friends!

We are back with the forth instalment of this series, but today I don’t have any skills to share (well, I have lots to share over the coming weeks, but not today), instead I’ve decided to take the advice of my therapist and share something kinda vulnerable.

As I mentioned in previous posts, I’m on new medication, and today’s post is about that. So if you’re sensitive to medication posts or anything like that, feel free to click off, no hard feelings!

I think I’ve mentioned in old posts that I’ve changed medications a lot over the years. I tried Zoloft and Cipralex which both made me break out in massive hives, and then I was on Wellbutrin and Abilify, which didn’t do much for me either way.

Then my old doctor switched me to Cymbalta, which helped a lot for a while, but in the end it was making my manic episodes worse.

I was almost at the point of giving up on medication altogether, and then my new doctor put me on lithium for my new diagnosis of bipolar disorder, and I started to see some change. I had more motivation, and I actually wanted to do things for once. It was nice to feel “normal” for a change, but the side effects were a lot to handle. I was dizzy all the time and couldn’t sleep, I was nauseated and hallucinating, and my doctor said I should try something else.

So along came Seroquel XR which made me EXHAUSTED and dizzy, and I thought my depressed episodes were getting worse, but my doctor actually upped my dosage this past Friday, despite sounding counterproductive to me, and you know what? I think it might be working.

I am still super tired, and now I’ve got the added symptom of restlessness, but I’m actually way more motivated than I’ve been in a long time. “Happy” is still a stretch for me, but I’m doing okay.

So, I guess the point of this post is to tell you that it may be frustrating finding the right medication, or the right doctor, or the right therapy, but it’s worth hanging on for.

Again, I’m still not where I wish I was, but I’m getting there. Don’t give up. You deserve to get help, too.

If you’re on psychiatric medication, what are you on? Does it work for you? How many times did you have to switch before you found something? Let me know in the comments, I’d love to hear your stories!

As always, and especially in times like these, stay safe, friends.

Until next post,

Paige 🙂